Written Desires

What do I desire most in life?
The question has lingered on my mind for quite a while unable to escape from my subconscious. Seems like all the answers lie within those dreams you wake up frustrated that you can't remember, even with a dream journal right there next to you.
I'd like to think I am looking and hoping to discover my niche, the pattern of life I will uphold and call my own.
Yet, is that really what I desire? To fall into ritual, keep to a schedule and fulfill what society says is to be fulfilled during one's life. Is there another way? Maybe, maybe not.
I may not have the answer, but I do have a few items that I desire greatly in life that I will share with you.

I'd like to discover light.
And I'm not just talking about the spotlight (although that is a prominent dream of mine). When I say light, I'm more speaking of knowledge. I want to know, ponder and discover. The unknown, the darkness, is enough to both provide endless nightmares and mind infuriating collections of thoughts. To not know is a part of life, yet it can be very frustrating. Sometimes I wish to have the ability to read another's mind; to know exactly what they're thinking. It'd be easier, but more likely more of a curse than a blessing. I will never know everything, but I will also never stop chasing that impossible destination.

I'd like to discover purpose.
Someday I'd like to be sitting in a rocking chair somewhere looking out on a beautiful sunset holding the hand of someone I have endured much with and know that my life has had purpose; a reason and end result that in some way helped others discover theirs as well. I aspire to inspire. To provide that push for someone to follow their dream the way people have pushed me. Service is the act of selfless love to another; and it's co-partner is charity. If I go a day without an act of kindness, I have had a day without reason or purpose. The moment me becomes more important than they is the moment my soul shall waste away.

I'd like to discover excellence.
"Never settle with mediocrity, when around the corner awaits excellence."
I must never let excellence sit and wait so far out of reach. Keep excellence within grasp and never allow the misleading comfort of 'average' destroy the desire to be the best you can be. There will never be perfection; for to achieve that is meant to be impossible. If it were possible, than there would be an end to dreams and goals. To dream is healthy; and to have a goal is to be in good health. Turn your dreams into goals! Make them reachable! Write them down! Do not give up because of necessity for perfection; but instead always strive for excellence.

I'd like to discover love.
I know that I have yet to really realize the infinite power that is eternal love between two people. I have had tastes of other kinds of love; my family, my pets and other close friends that occupy daily thoughts and concerns. But to experience the emotion, the sacrifice and the devotion of marriage is something greatly anticipated and should never be dealt with anything except the greatest care. Love has no bounds. I will not be limited by pressure nor belief. Love is one of those few choices that is truly yours. Do not ever allow anything to stop love from merely happening.

What do I desire most?
I may never know.